current constant mood: highly sensitive
I am emerging out of my own introverted “shell” I retreated to at the start of social distancing and height of fear with Covid-19. I know this was circumstance related because I’m usually an extrovert (a true #ENFP if you are familiar with #MyersBriggs personality assessment).
Lately, I have been intentional of my introversion(#INFP) and have seen it with my behavior like not having the energy to respond to texts and calls and what usually would light me up with connecting with a community and conversations no longer inspired me. I felt a cloudy fog of uninspired & anxious-fearful FUNK.
I can see now that stress and hypervigilance of keeping my family safe took over all engines and was (is) taxing on my body & emotions. I also see that staying on top of the news was taking its toll on me too. An empath and the activist in me feels deeply and wants to help but how... And from what reserve tank because I don’t have it in me.
That’s when I read somewhere,
“focus on depth and proximity vs. casting a wide net.”
For me, this was a saving grace.
I felt bad for not doing more and for not having inspiring content or heartfelt IG videos or IG lives.
I felt bad for not offering more to the Women’s Soul Circle and taking it virtual. Which I have not done, yet. But, where I can be the most helpful with my love, providing some kind of sense of safety and support is for my family & a handful of friends right now.
And that is okay.
The activist in me who desires to be part of a solution or a movement demands more and aside from donations & #stayathome practice. I didn't think that was enough. I’m doing my best in this new reality and I know we all are. Be gentle & aware of the expectations or judgements you may have placed on yourself and others.
I know that I am.
I give myself permission to not feel stronger than I think I should be.
And in that, it is a valuable insight of healing for me.
Sending 💕 love.
